A Songwriter's Secret Life

Everything happens for a reason.

Month: August, 2012

‘Like’ your fave artist!

‘Like’ your fave artist!

Don’t forget to ‘like’ your fave artist from last night’s episode on the CMT website! You have until Wednesday next week to ‘like’ your favourites as many times as you want ūüôā

And if you like my youtube videos, share them with your friends! ūüėÄ Maybe they’ll like them too ūüôā

Thanks for your ongoing support xox


My Worst Critic

They say you’re your own worst critic. Sometimes I wonder if that’s worse than someone else¬†criticizing you… I think it’s easier to ignore negativity when it’s coming from others than it is coming from within yourself.¬†

I was anxious for the show to air. I knew my performance wasn’t where I wanted it to be, but it all happened so quickly that I couldn’t really remember how far off it was from my scale of “acceptability”. Well, it was off. Way off. And no matter how much the people around me cheered me on, I couldn’t get past it.¬†

I received tons of emails and notifications about my appearance on the show… I was so happy and thankful to have so many people supporting me… but the side of me that was still kicking myself wasn’t allowing me to enjoy the experience to it’s fullest.¬†

Not one person had a negative comment. No one except for me. 

You know that Taylor Swift song called “Mean”? The one she wrote about that critic who was a complete jerk and belittled her for her performance at the Grammy’s? I was that guy last night—to myself. I can’t be that guy. I had the opportunity of a¬†lifetime¬†and there I was, getting upset about one measly performance. The exposure that I got from this experience is the biggest shot I’ll ever get at making this a bigger part of my life.¬†

I am so thankful for everything this show has brought to my life. It helped me learn who I was as an artist and grow into a stronger vocalist and grow my confidence. I mean, I gotta give myself a break here. I hid away my passion for this for years, and the first time I sing my own material was on a CMT show. That’s pretty freaking awesome.

I think one day I’ll look back at this and laugh.


“Someday, I’ll be living in a big ol’ city, and all you’re ever gonna be is mean.

Why you gotta be so mean?”


Today is the DAY!

The show airs TONIGHT on CMT Canada at 7 pm ET! So excited (and nervous that I totally messed up haha jk)!

I wanted to have an original up for everyone. It’s far from perfect, but it’s me (with a somewhat raspy voice in the morning!)

It’s called ‘Just Be You’ ūüôā

DON’T FORGET!! You can start ‘liking’ your favourite artist as soon as the show starts! Have your laptops/cellphones/ipads READY!!!

My most recent cover :3

I love Miranda Lambert and her voice… she’s fantastic! Did a cover of one of her songs based on a friend’s suggestion ūüôā Decided to do ‘Over You’—reminded me of my grand-mother who passed a few years back. Miss you Memere xo

My first public video… eek!

Super shy about this first video… :3 It’s a cover of one of my fave Taylor songs called Tim McGraw

Best friends are all like this, right?


No matter what you go through, whether it be…

…a fight with a sibling

…a bad day at work

…having a bad sandwich

…your best friend will always be the one to help you get through it better than anyone else. Best friends have a magical way of making solutions seem so obvious. Kinda like one of those high school moments where you realize, “Oh, so you mean he won’t like me more if I look him up in the phone book and call him pretending I’m a telemarketer?”¬†

Just saying—that never happened. *Ahem* moving on.

You also get to tell them about the great times like…

…passing your driver’s test (miracles happen)

…successfully cooking an entire meal for more than one person (without killing anyone :3)

…throwing a crumpled up piece of paper into the garbage on the first try (after 3 practice shots)

…and they get¬†just as excited about it as you do.

Best friends are awesome.


All best friends are like this, right? Or am I just really lucky? :3


Imagine the view from up there.

The other day, I was driving over a bridge in Ottawa… and I saw a bird perched up on top. I thought,

“Wow, imagine the view from up there.

If I was a bird, oh the places I would go.”

Birds can fly because they’re not afraid of falling.

Be a bird.

Oh the places you’ll go.




Things that get me pretty psyched.

– Waiting for Big In A Small Town to air. This gets me excited. And anxious. And nervous. And excited. ūüôā

– Having well known people follow me on twitter… I have under 40 followers… and when someone who works in the music industry (LIKE FREAKING BIG MACHINE RECORDS) starts following you, you get excited. But don’t tell them I said that. I’m afraid they won’t think I’m cool and stop following me. (Side note: that’s Taylor Swift’s record company. Ya.)

– Writing new songs that I think are actually awesome. I get this tingly feeling in my stomach and my arms when I’ve written something I love. It’s weird.

– Hanging out with Taylor Swift (…on a live chat on youtube) and…


– FINDING OUT her new album is called RED and comes out OCTOBER 22ND and…

– HEARING her new single called “We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together”… which is PHENOMENAL.¬†

I’m using caps because I actually would be screaming it–that is, if I wasn’t alone in my living room with my two dogs who would be suddenly very frightened of me.

Oh oh oh!!

– AND, that the song she co-wrote with Ed Sheeran WILL BE ON THE ALBUM.

Okay I’m done screaming now.



PS: I super promise to have a song ready for you to hear by the time the show airs. :3


It’s never been about “being better” than anyone for me. It’s always been about challenging myself. My biggest opportunity has been to differentiate¬†challenging myself¬†and being¬†overly self-critical.

I’m working on it. ūüôā

I over-analyse, so not knowing for sure about what’s to come is something I’ve always struggled with because I come up with multiple¬†scenarios¬†and outcomes as time progresses.

To put it simply, I’m a dreamer.


I’m inspired by Taylor Swift. Deal with it.

Inspiration drives creativity…

My biggest inspiration is Taylor Swift.

By now, I know that’s starting to sound almost¬†cliche, but it’s because she’s inspired so many people–and there’s nothing wrong with that.

But it’s strange how so many people think there¬†is¬†something wrong with that. Why is it so wrong to idolize someone for being kind, thoughtful, driven, successful, funny, focused, grounded… because they’re famous?¬†I think it stems from a few things:

1. Because of their personal preference: They don’t like her, why should you?

2. Her voice is no match to the likes of Mariah Carey, Carrie Underwood or Christina Aguilera.

3. She claims to be a country singer, but her songs aren’t “country”.

…among other things I’ve heard.

The first point (I think) can be labeled as “Justinbieberism” (ya, just made that up… it’s definitely not a thing). It’s crazy how much people¬†hate¬†him. And they use the term so loosely. “Hate”. Ugh. You can’t hate someone without good reason–and finding him annoying and cocky is not a good reason (Side note: I love Justin Bieber… GO CANADA!). But when someone says they love him or idolize him, the haters hate them too! I don’t get it.

Let’s say you like puzzles. Wouldn’t it be weird if someone who didn’t like puzzles came up to you and said they¬†hated you¬†because you liked puzzles? I’m pretty sure conversation would go, “Oh. I don’t like puzzles,” and end there. Same should go for Taylor. “Oh. I don’t like Taylor Swift.” The end. Everyone is entitled to their opinions and those who disagree shouldn’t fight them on it.

The second point is a huge topic of discussion when it comes to Taylor; her voice. She has never claimed to have a voice like the aforementioned singers. She has never claimed she’s never gone flat on a note or had consistently perfect performances. She is¬†not¬†perfect and she’d be the first to tell you that, (like in her song ‘Mean’:¬†You have pointed out my flaws again, as if I don’t already see them) …but don’t expect her to come out and announce to the world that she had a tough performance! There’s the argument that “Well, she’s a singer. Singing is her job, shouldn’t she be perfect?” Singing is one of the many facets of Taylor’s job–she is an¬†artist, and she’s damn good at it. Her voice is sweet, powerful and easily¬†identifiable.¬†Taylor works hard and challenges herself day in, day out (another reason why I find her so inspiring). Besides, I don’t think anyone can say they’re perfect at their jobs–and if you can, I think you lack accountability and self-awareness. Annnnddddd *manager hat comes off*.

Lastly, there’s the whole “She’s not country enough” thing.

If you can think of ten country artists, I bet you one of them would be Shania Twain. When Shania was sick of singing other peoples’ songs, she went off and wrote her own… with rock music producer Mutt Lange. When they presented their songs to her label, they were worried it was too different and not country enough. Ultimately, if it didn’t come out of Nashville, you were taking a big risk. And with that, Shania Twain became one of the most successful country music artists of all time. Genres evolve over time, and it’s people like Shania and Taylor who¬†aren’t afraid to take risks¬†that make these things happen. So next time you think Taylor Swift isn’t “country enough”, think of Shania Twain and what she did to change the face of country.

So. To sum up. I like Taylor Swift. She inspires me. She’s awesome.¬†If it weren’t for her, I wouldn’t be where I am today.

And no matter what happens, I’ll always be proud to say it.