A Songwriter's Secret Life

Everything happens for a reason.

Month: July, 2012

I’ll always believe in myself.

I haven’t found out if I’ve made it into the top 6 or not yet, and I probably won’t for a while (I couldn’t tell you anyhow! Hehe). Honestly, I don’t think I’ll make it through, but that’s not to say I don’t think I did a great job. Considering I’ve never done this before, and have been hiding this away for years, I think I did fantastic. For someone with my level of experience, I could not be any more pleased with how everything turned out–and the fact that I was given this opportunity in the first place!

The other talent was phenomenal. Everyone had something different to bring to the table, which is going to make our episode so great! I seriously don’t know how they’re going to choose out of the four. I couldn’t say anyone was better than anyone because they were all amazing. Seriously.

And my husband and I watch shows like American Idol (mostly the auditions, haha), Canada/America’s Got Talent… etc. We can ALWAYS call it. We always know who doesn’t have a chance in the world and who is FOR SHIZ going through to the next round.

…but we’re stumped on this one!

Maybe it’s because we’ve built a more personal connection with each contestant… but as a manager, I’ve taught myself to be objective–I have to, whether I like it or not. Nonetheless, I’m still unsure.

I’ve always been the type of person to reach for gold in everything I do, so realizing I’m probably not going through somewhat disappointed my inner dreamer. One of my dreams was to become a manager. I was 18 at the time and barely had supervisory experience, let alone management, but I persevered and by the time I was 20, I was running my own business. I’m even training others to do my job, because I love what I do and it shows in my work. And I’m proud of that. I’ll never brag about it. When people ask, I’ll be honest and allow them to react the way they want to…

…like when someone asks to speak to the manager, and little ol’ me walks over. They always ask, “Are you the manager?” Hah. Their reaction is always priceless when I say I am.

So when I’m presented with a challenge, I always push myself to the limit–because I believe in myself. And yes, sometimes my inner realist is like “What the heck are you thinking?”, but when I know I can do something, I do it, whether or not I have doubts. 

My husband is the last person who wants to see my inner dreamer crushed. He always tells me “You always set yourself up for disappointment.” He’s right. I do. But my inner realist is strong enough to get me through it.

In the end, I’ll always make sure I’m happy… and I am right now. Really happy 🙂 That’s all that matters. Everything happens for a reason, and if it was meant to be, it was meant to be.

Because I believe in fate, do you? 🙂

~Shauna

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My big secret… revealed!

Some of you may know that over the course of 20 days, I counted down to the “beginning”. The beginning could be many things… in this case, my beginning was a new chapter in my life: music. Suddenly, music wasn’t just rocking out to Super Bass as I baked, writing songs alone wrapped up in a blanket on my couch or playing mediocre guitar on my bathroom floor. For a little while, music was my purpose.

A couple months ago, I told you that I stumbled upon a contest called Big In A Small Town by CMT. It was as if something was telling me to check the CMT website (which I never do). I was simply curious about new country artists–and there it was: a big announcement for this contest. I eventually mustered up enough confidence to whip up a video of one of my songs and sent it off. My first attempt to apply failed even because the video file was too big. In my mind, that was a sign that it just wasn’t meant to be… but I was magically given the opportunity to reapply.

Out of the most dense population in the country, I made it on. I GOT ON THE SHOW. I’m one of the top 5 finalists in the Ontario region.

I honest to goodness thought I didn’t have a shot in the world. But here I was. On a CMT show.

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:O:O:O:O:O:OO:OO:O:O:O:O!!!! RIGHT?! Yes. That’s me and Brooke Pashley. RIGHT?!?!?

Oddly enough, I wasn’t freaking out. Toats relaxed. I surprised myself with my ease around this entire thing. It felt so natural somehow. I wasn’t afraid to be myself. I thought, “Well, this is me, take it or leave it.” Ya, I was able to think that before performing for what will be on national television. Somehow.

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Deep down, I was nervous though, and I knew it would affect my voice. So I decided not to belt it out and ended up singing a little too quietly. But man WAS IT FUN! 🙂

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The mentors Casey Clarke and Crystal Shawanada were AMAZING. So smart and in tune with the genre. I was quite starstuck by them. They were so great. 

I loved their feedback and agreed with them 100%. I show confidence and comfort in myself, but didn’t show that power in my singing. They said they loved the song, found it catchy and could relate (SO FLATTERED!), but that I had to work on pushing the singing to the next level.

They were so sweet and constructive! I was honored to perform for them and know that no matter what happens, I learned something and have great feedback to take back and consider 🙂

All in all… it was everything I’d hoped it would be times a thousand. I am a better person for it, and appreciated every moment. The other contestants were FREAKING FANTASTIC!!! I have some really tough competition, everyone was unique and talented and I know making a decision will be hella hard for Big In A Small Town. Glad it’s not me who has to pick!!!

I’ll keep you posted on the results of this round, and even if I don’t make it through, I know this has opened many doors for me already 🙂

The show airs August 30th at 10 PM EST on CMT Canada. Hope you’re watching! 🙂

PS: My real name is Shauna Denis. 🙂 No need to hide anymore!

Follow me on Twitter if you’d like! @Shauna_Denis :)))

~Shauna

P.S.: I know there are many smiley faces in this post. I just couldn’t help it! 🙂 SEE?!

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